something written by a friend...

八年恋曲

他和她相遇在八年前
理工学院里
开学第二个星期

他爱上了她
她拒绝了他

是他不懂得如何开口
或她不懂得如何接受

八年之久的单恋
难道就不被心动

她说年龄是他们的距离
他说年龄不是问题

她一再而三地接受别人
他没有兴趣接近她人

她失恋时与他相约
他们也一起乘机旅行

她就不觉得是在牵着他的思恋
让他无法解脱对她的眷恋

事到如今
只能说

她懂得爱是不能施舍的
她懂得爱一个人不仅仅是痴心就能
她懂得不被感动
她懂得拒绝
她懂得等待一个属于自己的人

他懂得爱是永恒的
他懂得爱一个人决不能放弃
他懂得专一是男人的稀品
他懂得相守到老
他懂得谁是值得等待的

他们都懂得如何去爱
但他们逆着方向走
反反复复地
怎样也找不到同一个出口

time flies... can't believe that almost a decade had passed...

my foolishness

gone were the fun and laughter...
now just a brief look... a weak smile as we walked past each other everyday...
no words exchanged... not even a "hi"...

deep down, i knew the things i did, the words i said... was most disappointing to this friendship...
and that only now... then i realized i've lost something... something which meant a lot to me...

no back up plan... no second chance...
and no one else to blame...

i would don a mask of a straight face... occasionally forcing a weak smile when things go bad and when i couldn't handle the overwhelming emotions...

i had never felt so down... so depressed...
it's as if the pillars holding everything up for me had collapsed and...
everything just came felling down on me...
and i have nowhere to run... nowhere to hide...

GST hike is coming soon. GSS is starting next week.
shopping's not in my nature...
but i think it's about time i do something about that miserable wardrobe of mine.
so many things to buy... so little $$

for a long long time... i had chose to be a fool, then to face the truth...
i lived on hope like a weakling, not brave enough to face the harsh reality...
but i know that...

能做的, 想做的... 我都做了...
要说的, 想说的... 我也说了...

只是结局... 不是我渴望的... 不是我想要的...

没有什么遗憾...
只是感觉很无奈...

Phantom of the Opera

went for my 1st musical.
in simple words...
i'm really glad that i didn't miss it after waiting for 11 years.
and it's definitely worth the wait... :)

deja vu

it was the same day a year ago...

the same person,
the same words,
the same outcome...

goodbye grandma...
i miss you...
hope that you are in a better place now...
and sorry... for being unable to fulfill your wish...