lost of words... dunno how and what to write anymore...
taking a break... for how long? i'm not sure.
and maybe one day... i will be back...

sad, lonely, helpless...
things are not working out for me...
sometimes i asked myself..." did i try too hard or did i do too little?"

give me a place to run away to... or better still...
if there's a reset button in life, i would press it without any hesitation...

better off on my own...

wished that i was back to the days when i'm studying in Oz...
living in my own pad... the peace and quietness...
where i don't have to face this ridiculous family of mine day in day out...

when it comes to my family, "less interaction = less confrontation"...
it seems like i'm always walking in the opposite direction when it comes to every matters.
and what's the funny thing, even though i tried to avoid confrontations everyday... trouble always managed to find its way back to me...

work's already taking a toll on me... and now family...
luckily i still have my few bros...
if it's not for their presence... that intense feeling of being alone in this world would have engulfed me a long time ago...

i don't know how long i can deal with that mixture of frustration, helplessness, loneliness and sadness in me anymore...

i need a place to run away to...